No, I'm not OK.
No, the stories have nothing to do with me.
The fact that I'm writing this now is proof that that is not me, is it not?

Ha.


Keep me sane.
Keep me sane.

Hell, just keep me...




may I say "Save me!" now?

I enjoy slipping into my night-time side. The side where I turn slightly psychotic and writhe under my skin.

I"m enjoying it.

here is the source of my enjoyment.

distortion chapter 1 is up.
Short chapters.
chapter 2 will be up tomorrow if i'm not stopped first.
it gets better
much better.

Yes, I love Dir en grey. I like a lot of Jrock, but best of all I'm in love with Dir en grey.

I always ALWAYS daydream about Dir en grey, especially Kyo.

I haven't met Kyo personally *yet* but I will recount just a few of my tales of Dir en grey an' Me


It was a hot, summery summer day. Dir en grey was playing at Six Flags. No one had heard of them except the five others who were mashed up against the barrier five feet from the stage. For seven hours, we had stayed up there, gripping onto the barrier for dear life: saving our spot.

Then... it began.

G.D.S. sounded through the gigantic speakers. Deafening as the music was, I stayed strong. My eyes were wide open, and that's how they stayed. I wasn't going to forget any of it.

They entered the stage in their usual fashion (a'la Code of Vulgar[ism] DVD) and the crowd cheered. I cheered. I, who never makes a noise for ANYTHING, cheered.

The highlights: Kyo looked at me twice throughout their set, and my heart fluttered each time. He even smiled; Not at me, of course, but a small smirk was growing at the corner of his mouth at one point. Silly Kyo <3

I met Toshiya (the best bass player who's ever lived) and Die.

Toshiya smiled at the bracelet I made him.

.....


The rest was a blur. I mean, I remember it. But those are the things that have stuck with me even at my worst times. The soft, warm feeling inside my chest surges each time, no matter how upset or angry or sad I am.



<3 I've seen them a couple more times after that, but that's another story for another day <3



Ja ne~

Not sure what we all enjoy, but I'm pretty sure on this site it's Art.

Just an observation.


Anywho, my formal training in art is continuing. Grueling process it is, don't you know. In the beginning, my teacher found everything wrong with my drawings of cubes and such in 1 point and 2 point perspective. I have a problem drawing perfectly straight lines, you see. However, I never gave up! It was my plucky attitude that kept me going.

As we moved on to (finally) gesture drawings of branches and fabric and a fun still life featuring a murdered cow skull, my teacher's "compliment sandwich" turned into "compliment!!!!"

^^


*yyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwnnn*


Some new stuff is going to go up next week, (this week, as it were) so please stick around!

I'm finally taking formal drawing classes. We're just starting to use charcoal, so I thought I'd have some fun with it. Just two little deviations so far. Depending on response, I may do more.

The quickness in which I did these makes me skeptical to my own artistic talents, but I draw what I draw and I actually really like what I draw.


So, following that logic, I like me!